Friday, November 5, 2010

unchanged


Have you ever loved somebody? if you did, you probably know the feeling of how it hurts when you're in the middle of a fight, hearing shits of words as it slowly ripping your heart. as if you never thought he'd say such things. like it would come to a point when you hear yourself asking, do i really know him? do i still know him? there would be long exchange of words and blaming. as it usually ends, one chooses to walk away, crying. Days would rotten you, wondering, asking and waiting. and if no one goes back knocking at your door, you'll feel like a poor kid with nowhere to go. longing for one's touch, one's care, one's love. it's sick, it's like finding a way to kill every memory and silhouette of her. But how do you run? how do you escape? how can you move on?
 
unbelievably, this is what Lacuna clinic does. it decodes a map in your brain through every story, memory and things that are related with the person you want to erase in your life. it erases all the moments from the day you met until the day he said goodbye. in other words, it allows you to erase all the pain and start all over again.
ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND proved that nothing cannot pull two in-love people away from each other, even washing away the sands of memories they had together. A technically damaged brain does not imply a damaged and forgetful heart. The heart finds its way back to where it feels the comfort and security even in the darkest hours. I think Clementine and Joel were really not just meant for each other.  another things is that they are willing to start a new chapter and face tomorrow, whatever comes. Perceiving what might possibly come through the years, they're eyes are widely open to deal and work it out. 
I'm not a firm believer of destiny anyway, things can just be of a random circumstance, but somehow, i can still say that some things happen with the will of fate.
As lost things are retrieved and found, old friends may share that smile with you again, a father and husband who left his family for another might find his way back to his true home, a dying man may witness a miracle, and you, call him. you can always find a way out to rest but do not cease believing.
If you can't find yourselves back in each others arms like what Clementine and Joel did, do not be afraid. You can still fix that broken wings and fly again. it may not be as high as when you were flying with him, but surely, it will take you to places you never knew before, you'll find beauty and be able to breathe again and unconsciously overcame the limits you've set together. 

There are no equations to get a perfect life. people are not always there to help you, neither fate. it is YOU who can lift yourself from every fall. in every relationship, with family, with friends and with lovers, decisions are in the hands involve in it. If one gets cut, immediately  find a remedy o prevent it from getting deeper. Do not be daunted by scars, instead it is a sign that may flaunt your courage and strength that you have survived.

At the end of the day, feelings and memories  may fade, but still, your heart's unchanged.


first blood

BUENAS NOCHES. oh well i just had a last phrase syndrome from my psychology professor who keeps greeting us with this. i like him. His big belly keeps me comfortable seeing him like an ordinary old man walking slowly on a street. i just hope he is intellectual enough, knowing he is also from MaSci. let me just cut the story. i just remembered him randomly so i blogged him here.  it's my first time to squeeze in a little stuff  here, i hope i'll get used to this even now, supposing a lot of school  quizzes, projects and all kinds of dramas will lessen my time doing things i like, what do i like anyways? i can't think of anything except for eating and siting here surfing any corner of the web. wait. i was thinking of something to insert between this. but i guess it's worth another post. uhm. not for now. :))))


okay. srsly, i never planned to spend my time talking to you, contradicting the fact that i am a mass communicator. I just suddenly felt this night is perfect  to do some chitchat, to wash away the stress brought by my fcking schedule in school. never remind me of it. i've accepted the fact of unfairness. yeah. i'll get used to it by the way.and i think i'm happy with the people i'm with this time.


what's with gossip girl? nothing's much in it aside from what my best friend and i termed it as SEXING. :)) LOL. i miss her. i love blair anyway and the blond woman who once wore an all-covered black suit but took an emphasis having a wide deep hole on the part of her chest :D

off here, gotta watch the finale episode of the fashion drama, magkaribal. i wonder who gets dead by the chandelier.